2011 has been one hell of a ride to say the least. I will always remember this year as the one where I finally managed to become a happy person, the one where I finally overcame my depression and sadness and started to enjoy life. The one where I started to work on myself, look forward and smile. The one where I realised that, whatever you're going through, a lot of people in the world have it a lot worse than you do.
On the other hand, it has been a year where I've dealt with a lot of loss and grief. It may sound irrelevant, but I lost my dog. He was the closest thing to a brother I've ever had and I loved him so ridiculously much (and still do). But the worst thing that happened to me this year was losing my grandmother. My amazing, beautiful, badass grandmother. I can't begin to explain how much she means to me. All the times we spent together, all the talks we had about life, the future and music. She was and still is my biggest inspiration. She was so proud of me, people who knew her still tell me every day, and I've made it my life mission to continue making her as proud as possible while she's up there. I feel like I owe it to her, to work as hard as I can for everything I plan and dream of. I still miss her every day, and I hate the fact that I'll never be able to show her how one day everything will have fallen into place.
So in a couple of hours 2012 will start. I will start this year with yet another outlook on life, love and the world. I am truly grateful to be alive and I am blessed to have so many people around me that I love with all my heart. You are my inspiration to be a good person every day and to never give up on love. I am blessed to have been given so many chances, to start college and to work on my future, to attend shows and to listen to music, which is one of the most important things in my life.
Life is short, spend it wisely, but don't overthink too much. It will destroy you. When you are down, embrace it and wait for better days to come. They will come. Turn on the light inside yourself. If you look closely you will always find it. I have found it.
Happy New Year.
xo Yentl
On the other hand, it has been a year where I've dealt with a lot of loss and grief. It may sound irrelevant, but I lost my dog. He was the closest thing to a brother I've ever had and I loved him so ridiculously much (and still do). But the worst thing that happened to me this year was losing my grandmother. My amazing, beautiful, badass grandmother. I can't begin to explain how much she means to me. All the times we spent together, all the talks we had about life, the future and music. She was and still is my biggest inspiration. She was so proud of me, people who knew her still tell me every day, and I've made it my life mission to continue making her as proud as possible while she's up there. I feel like I owe it to her, to work as hard as I can for everything I plan and dream of. I still miss her every day, and I hate the fact that I'll never be able to show her how one day everything will have fallen into place.
So in a couple of hours 2012 will start. I will start this year with yet another outlook on life, love and the world. I am truly grateful to be alive and I am blessed to have so many people around me that I love with all my heart. You are my inspiration to be a good person every day and to never give up on love. I am blessed to have been given so many chances, to start college and to work on my future, to attend shows and to listen to music, which is one of the most important things in my life.
Life is short, spend it wisely, but don't overthink too much. It will destroy you. When you are down, embrace it and wait for better days to come. They will come. Turn on the light inside yourself. If you look closely you will always find it. I have found it.
Happy New Year.
xo Yentl
